Our Hlhs Journey

5th October 2018 First offical day in birmingham, sleep was awful. When we arrived at the hospital last night Noah was took straight to his bed and had all the checks done. His weight, length, head measured, blood took, and swabs took. All to make sure he had no infecion markers and also for his chart. The nuses seen we where draind it was about 8pm and we had traveled god knows how meny miles birmigham childrens hospital. So they said one could stay in the hospital or both could go to hotel and rest up. We decided to go to hotel. We werent going to be any good in the mess we where in. So got Noah settled in his tiny bed and even seen him open an eye. It was amazing and to top it off they said we could have cuddles. So we walked about to find this hotel which was only round the corner from the hospital, so it was great to know we werent far. Obviously as soon as we got up we went to get breakfast so we could just sit with the wee man all morning, then headed to the hospital. We got i

4th October  Its thursday, woke up early as i normally would when Noah was still a wee bump, he had a time for kicking my ribs and that was to tell me to get up. I had a dream that he was still a bump, didnt think anything of it until i woke up and realisd it was a dream that he was actually lying in hospital. So as soon as my eyes woke i woke up Stuart and got dressed as quick asi could, looking like a tramp that hadnt eaten for months i was white as a ghost due to low iron and away we went. Down to see our little man, i was so happy. Few hours had passed just us sitting there staring at him, putting our hands in to stroke him and feel his tiny hands and soft hair. Because he was on special medicatoion and was very important that he didnt catch a cold or get sick in any way he was kept n an incubator. It was hard but it was only a taste of what was to come. The nurses asked us to leave as they knew we didnt have any breakfast and they had a phone call that we had to be at the air

Getting ready So the day after all the excitement Stuart came up to see us. I needed a shower again so i got up to go to the one next to my room but it was closed. I had the most hardest walk I've ever had to do. I walked past all the new families with all their lovely little babies. The crying was the hardest. I will never forget how it felt to hear them cry, and seeing the mummies cuddling their precious gifts to settle them, i couldn't do that for my boy, he was sedated so he wasn't under stress and so he didn't pull any tubes out, but also because he wasn't allowed out of the incubator all we could do was touch him. Which was a lovely way to let him know we where there, but i wanted, i needed more, and knowing I wasn't allowed to hold him was hard. I got into the shower and while i was there even the loud running water and hair dryers couldn't stop hearing the babies. it was the quickest shower i ever had and i ran back to my room. Now when i say ran i