Life goes on

Birthday scan 

After seeing that he was growing i said to Stuart that i wanna enjoy my pregnancy like any other time or anyone else, so i booked a 4D scan for my birthday as i never got one with the girls it was a first. Being the person i am i think of every outcome before it happens and think of the negatives and positives so having the 4D pictures will be something we have of him incase things don't work out. Not that i think they wont as our man is a fighter but its something you have to do when having a child like our little man. just the same way i have done up his room and have everything you normally do have in for a baby coming home. Edith has been ringing and checking on us nearly every week which is amazing, it reassures me that our man is going to be in good hands and that Stuart and I don't need to worry about things like getting flights sorted or hotel rooms as the amazing charity Children's heartbeat trust is dealing with all that with Edith. It takes a big load of our back. The only thing we have been trying to arrange is baby sitters for the girls. So we have a rota worked out between my mum and granny, and Stuarts mum and dad for the girls. We are trying to keep their routine as they need their routine to stay pretty normal for school and such stuff. We don't want them stressing about anything.  So the weeks are now flying by, one week is gone after another, we barely see them coming in as we are constantly on the go up and down to the hospital, its a second home now. And here we are, the 14th July I'm 27 weeks and 4 days gone and its the day for our 4D scan. It's at the same clinic we had our gender scan, and the girls are with us. We have told them about the wee man being sick and gently went into what is wrong with his heart, and we all can't wait to see him again. O.M.G what an experience it was to see him in 4D. We seen him swallow the fluid, we seen him yawning, he done the dab from fortnight as lily says and we got loads of photos and a video. It's unbelievable what they get up to in the womb. You never really think about it. I'm so glad we did go for it as something we can all treasure as a family seeing him getting up to no good in there and having those memories.

Telling the girls

So i said in the last paragraph we told the girls, but i never said how we told them which no one could help us to do. We had to think about it for awhile on how to tell them, and what to tell them? It was pretty hard. Telling anyone is hard as any time i talked about it I just burst into tears. I couldn't tell you how meny times i went to tell the girls but couldn't as i was a state, but it needed to be done as anyone knows kids pick up on everything. So we sat them down and said that when mummy and daddy have been going to the hospital it was because their little brother was sick. Lily had more questions than Mia as Mia doesn't really understand to well but gets the gist of it. So Lily asked what was it that was making him sick? We said that his heart wasn't working properly and that while he is inside mummy's tummy he was ok but once he was born that he will be needing to stay in hospital a while. She asked how would he get better? So our reply was that he will need lots of Drs to look after him and that mummy and daddy have to go to England for them to make him better for him to come home for lots of cuddles from his sisters. They took it all in their stride I was so proud at how they handled it. we obviously never said about operations as they don't need to know that but that they are going to have lots of sleep overs at their nannies house and granny's house. Also that their nanny and granddad are going to stay in ours at the weekend for them so they don't miss home too much. It was hard but they have dealt with it amazingly and we have been doing lots of things over summer and went uniform shopping for when they start up school again in august.