Getting Nearer

Time to see the ward 

So the weeks have been flying by, it feels as if we haven't had much time to prepare our self's for how things are going to be different, and different as in my girls where set straight on me after birth what way is it going to be with him? Will we get to hold him for long? Will our girls get too see him? There's still so meny questions and answers we need to know. Doesn't feel that long ago we had just found out and now we are in single figures for count down. i can't believe it.
Got a date that Edith can show us round the ICU, maternity and the Clarke clinic, all the places he will be cared for, and i cant wait too see it, just so we can get a feel for it all. sorta get a jist on how and where he will be getting treatment, feeling so much more real and i wonder to myself am i ready? I'm going to have to be.
23rd August weather has taken a turn, getting cooler at nights and mornings, summer is nearly over. I cant wait to have that autumn feeling with the colours changing and all the cozy clothes and shoes, but today we are going to see Edith and go round the wards. I'm nervous, barely got any sleep with over thinking, i had a panic attack and was in a cold sweat most of the night. I have a feeling sleeping will get worse, with 2 girls we don't get much anyway, but it's going to get worse and i feel as though this is just a tip of the ice burg compared to whats to come. Having a baby with a heart condition i can imagine how little parents in the same boat get. Specially with checking on them to make sure they are ok, i'll be poking him and watching him breath until hes old enough to tell me to go away.
So we've seen the ward. Birth will pretty much be the same as my girls if all goes well, and the difference will be that there will be a lot more medical staff there for him and if he copes well and turns a pink colour we can have him for up to 10 minutes before he goes to to ICU ward to get his medicine and be closely monitored. The girls are allowed to see him before he goes to England which i'm so happy over as i didn't want them not seeing him. Grandparents are also allowed in during visiting hours, and Stuart and I can obviously go when we want. We got took threw all the wires that he will have on him and his feeding tube and medicine tube as well. Then took a walk threw the Clarke clinic where his after care from Birmingham will be. It was a lovely little place, not too big and the parents with their babies was lovely to see. You get to be as hands on as you want, providing that it's allowed. Because we will obviously need to learn how to change a feeding tube and not just jump in straight away, but baths and plenty of bonding is encouraged. I couldn't of wanted a better place for his after care.
So with being 33 weeks now I can't believe how little time there is left. There's all the bags to get sorted for travel, getting the girls sorted for us going away and most of all not to stress. It's easier said than done but i want to make sure he cooks to full term and has a stress free birth. Which is what all parents want but it's like they say, babies will come when they are ready. Even if your not. Best thing is the girls will be in school so that will distract them for awhile, and we are going to get them a wee pressie from their new baby brother for when we are away so they know hes going to be thinking of them and that its something nice for them for when we are away as well. I seen a few other mums and dads do the same thing when they've been away, just lets the older ones know that all is ok and not to worry.